Why I Felt a Connection to the Goddess as Opposed to God

In the tapestry of my life, woven through threads of personal experience and ancestral heritage, I find myself drawn to the essence of the Goddess rather than the conventional image of God. My journey into spirituality has been anything but linear, shaped by the nuances of family dynamics, cultural influences, and a lifelong curiosity that ignited within me at a young age.

Family Influences and Religious Background

I wasn’t raised in a religious household. My parents aren't religious and no-one in my friendship groups are religious either. However, my paternal grandparents provided a stark contrast. Lifelong churchgoers, their unwavering faith served as a backdrop to my early years. Visits to the Methodist Church with them and the Catholic baptism I underwent as a child marked my initiation into the world of organised religion. Yet, these experiences felt more like rituals to appease familial expectations than true reflections of my spiritual identity. My Mom's family, from Ireland, were all baptised Catholic, so me and my siblings were. I'd say more of a tradition because my Mom weren't a church goer herself.

Attending Church with my Grandparents and going to Sunday school, I learnt a lot, however it always felt separate from me. It felt like I was learning stories that had no relevance to me or my life and so eventually around the age of 13 I had lost interest.

A Curiosity for Theology

As i grew older I found that I had a thirst for knowledge that transcended the confines of the religious teachings I'd already encountered. My Catholic schooling, while steeped in tradition, was very limited in scope and I again felt no connection to it. I found myself yearning for understanding beyond the mainstream. It always felt like there was more to know that the schools and churches didn't tell us! So I delved into the history of various religions, I was highly captivated by the interconnectedness of beliefs and the universal themes that echo through time. The more I learned, the more I realised how much was left unexamined—how the narratives of the ancient world, particularly those of paganism and earth-based practices, were eclipsed by the dominance of Christianity. I couldn't help but feel there was so much there, more to uncover!

A Turning Point: Seeking Something Deeper

As I dealt with the rocky landscape of adulthood, my relationship with Christianity at this point was non-existent, overshadowed by the disillusionment that often accompanies painful personal trauma. Troubled relationships, a painful divorce, and a profound sense of being lost led me to seek something deeper—an elusive connection that I felt was missing in my life. I stumbled upon something magical, not through the rigid doctrines I had been taught, but in the whispers of the sacred feminine, the lost stories that have been marginalised for too long.

Discovering the Goddess Within

In discovering the Goddess and all her stories, I unearthed a part of myself that had long been dormant. It felt as if a familiar song had begun to play within me, one that resonated with the deepest chords of my soul. The more I explored, the more I recognised the vibrant tapestry of Celtic and pagan traditions—the festivals, the rituals, and the reverence for nature that felt like a homecoming. I began to see the parallels between the tales of gods and goddesses across cultures, from the Viking deities to the Greek pantheon, revealing a shared humanity that transcended time and place. It finally felt like something real, something with that deep connection my soul had been craving!

The Magic of Ancient Traditions

The Goddess embodies the magic that so many modern traditions have overlooked and lost. I discovered that many Christian customs, woven into the fabric of contemporary practice, are rooted in the ancient wisdom of pagan cultures. The more I learned, the more I felt connected to a tradition that honours the earth, respects the feminine, and celebrates the cyclical nature of existence. I began to see myself more clearly! I researched and learnt as much as I could about pagan traditions, different global religions, spiritual beliefs and it felt like a beautiful returning to myself!

Embracing the Goddess: A Warm Embrace

In stark contrast, my experience of Christianity was one of confinement. It felt cold, linear, and steeped in patriarchal narratives that relegated women to the margins. The idea that my salvation lay in the hands of an external figure, a male figure, never resonated with me. Why should I seek my identity and worth outside of myself? It made no sense to me. This realisation became a catalyst for transformation.

The connection to the Goddess felt like a warm embrace—a guiding light illuminating the path back to myself. It wasn’t about seeking forgiveness for perceived shortcomings but rather embracing the wholeness of my being, including my shadows. The dark goddess became a symbol of acceptance, a reminder that my flaws and fears are not wrong but essential parts of my journey.

The Goddess is not a distant figure to whom I must pray; she is within me—my essence, my breath, and my every action. This profound understanding has empowered me to reconnect with my true self, heal old wounds, and cultivate a sense of pride in who I am. I found strength in the nurturing energy of the Goddess, which calls for self-love, acceptance, and authenticity.

A Call for Respecting Diverse Paths

I share this not to diminish the beliefs of others but to illuminate my path. Spirituality is a deeply personal journey, and each of us is drawn to different ways of being. Respecting these diverse paths is crucial in our collective journey toward enlightenment. My connection to the Goddess is a reflection of my journey—one of reclamation, empowerment, and a celebration of the sacred feminine that resides within us all.

In the embrace of the Goddess, I have discovered a richness and depth that resonates with my soul. It is a journey that invites you to explore the divine within yourself, to honour the shadows and celebrate the light. Together, let us walk this path of self-discovery and transformation, reclaiming our power and weaving the stories of our ancestors into the fabric of our lives. Embrace your inner goddess—she has been waiting for you all along.

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